Thursday, April 23, 2009

What Have I Done?

Okay, what have I done?
I am accustomed to messing up. That's the way I function. At this point, I feel like I am asking myself, "Why Am I Here?". I already have one blog, Moonlight Hollow.  So why another blog? Originally, I started The Renaissance Chick so that I would have a writing outlet. I needed a blog which would allow me to be me.  Yes, I am me in Moonlight Hollow, but you know what I'm talking about...the other side of me...the side my Mother constantly reminds me to keep under control. 

So, how is the writing blog going for me? I post pictures with captions...only dipping my toes in the water. It has been so long since I revealed my inner self, I'm not sure if I can still tread water anymore. What if I bare my soul and sink straight to the bottom without anyone reaching out to pull me up for another lap? Or worse yet, what if I put it out there for all the whole world to see and the words cause no ripple and no one notices and I drown in my wordless thoughts? 

Then there is always the danger of offending. The me from years ago would never have thought twice about the offensive word. A woman with opinions will offend. Perhaps it has been my career for the last twelve years which has made me shy from stating my opinion loud and clear, but that career is over. The old me is clawing her way to the surface...tired of being suppressed and hidden away from judging eyes...tired of being discouraged from making the political statement which might offend.

I have decided that followers come and go, but those who support with an open mind are here to stay. Hang with me. I might find my voice. 



texasdaisey said...

You go girl!

Lou Cinda said...

We'll be here, we will listen, you do have merit and so do your thoughts! ALL of them!

We got your back girl!

Lou Cinda :)

Sue Jackson said...

Okay, first you are NOT going to drown because I personally will pull your sorry ass out of the water. And Malisa, only making a "ripple", please, give me a break, a ripple, wtf? Once you are you, I would say these so called "ripples" will be more like cannonballs with a big splash. You write what you want, and what you feel, and if someone doesn't like out there in cyberspace, so be it! We only get one chance to live our lives. . .wouldn't you prefer to do it without any regrets?

lulu Redstar & Lauri Evans said...

Silly Woman. don't make me open up a can o'whoop ass on you!
there are waaaay too many ooey gooey fooey blogs out there. If I wanted all sunshine and roses I'd go the the store and read a Mother's Day card.
Keep 'em're about as hard to ignore as a migraine AND I MEAN THAT IN THE MOST LOVING,KIND and SISTERLY way. :)
ox lulu

Ann said...

WAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You must always be true to yourself. Post what and when you like..because it is you!! I have been visiting since you started it.I have ALWAYS found it refreshing to read what's really on your mind..those who don't want to read it don't have to...but keep it going for your MANY admirers. This is a GREAT PLACE for you to be who you are,and I for one,have had a marvelous time getting to know you here!!

Cher said...

Put it all out there, girlfriend. That's what writers do. Yeah, sometimes we drown. Sometimes we don't. Just remember, you'll be famous after you die!

The Texas Woman

Whispering Pine Cottage said...

Just keep going, banish all doubt! You make me laugh so much! that can only be good!

Whispering Pine Cottage said...

P.S. Famous after you die! Sorry Cher, she is famous already!

trash talk said...

Those of us who dig you will always dig you. Those who don't? Well, I just call them walking stupid!
I love Lulu's comment! That is exactly how I feel. Yours is and always will be one of my favorite to read. I want to be entertained and girl, you are a one woman show!!!

sallymandy said...

What have you done? You've followed an internal prompt to do this and now you get to be true to yourself and follow through! You have many people rooting for you, and many who also know how you feel. I think you'll be comforted and heartened by how many lovely people will respond when you speak from the heart. I will! xo, sallymandy

Woman in a Window said...

Yes, this is what blogging should be about, uncensored honesty. Really, it is for exactly this reason I started my second blog but it has morphed into a poetry blog mostly. But you know what, I write it and put it out there, because it feeds me. If a few others take a bite, then all the better. Do it for you. Your voice will come and those of us that care about you will be happy to partake!

The Ultimate Cottage said...

You just say what is on your mind. I really enjoy reading your blog and this should be for your thoughts and feelings. Way to go.
Pam :-)